I AM RESPONSIBLE FOR MY DAY
I am responsible for how I feel and for what I do.
Nobody can make me feel anything.
If I have a rotten day, I am the only one who allowed it to be that way.
If I have a great day, I am the one who deserves credit for being positive.
It is not the responsibility of other people to change so that I can feel better.
I AM THE ONE WHO IS RESPONSIBLE OF MY LIFE!!
It's crazy to me that 7 years later, I still have it word for word. You want to know why? Because a lot happen in 5th grade. A good friend of mine killed himself, because of this my life was forever changed. Most people in my fifth grade class wouldn't pick these 2 things to share off the top of there head. But, when I think about 5th grade I like picking these 2 things first. Lets go back to the day when I really changed myself.
"Class go stand over by the back door and repeat the creed." Said Mrs. Robinson. (the creed is the responsible quote.) She then goes on to say, "As you may know we have started these think sheets and I will be sure to hand them out as needed so please be on your best behavior" (A think sheet is when you do something bad or not right, you then have to go in the hall and write down what you did wrong, think about it and wait for your teacher to come talk to you before you can go back and join the class.) I was a very good kid. Most teachers really liked well still like me. I never got a think sheet until one day. "Class pull out your math books it is time to get started on problem 5" Mrs. Robinson said. I hate math and don't understand any of it. So, with out raising my hand I say "Can I come to the front so I can see better because I really don't get number 5." Mrs. Robinson then said "Ashley I'm sorry but because you didn't raise your hand you need to go into the hall and do a think sheet." Here I go, crying in to the middle of the hallway where I then am joined by my fifth grade crush. "What are you doing out here." I ask him as I try and make my self look cute in a fifth graders mind. "Well, I didn't raise my hand" He said. "Why? You saw that I didn't raise my hand and thats why I was sent out here." He then shrugs. I didn't know it at the time, and I never will know but I think he didn't raise his hand because he wanted to come sit by me. We laughed and had lunch together that day. That was the first day all year he had sat by me for lunch. After lunch was the best part. Recess. We walked out side together talking about hair cuts. He goes on to tell me that he loves it when a girl has cute short hair. I smiled because I knew in 3 days I was going to get my hair cut and now I knew I was going to get it cut short. We played all lunch and we talked everyday after that. He was in the "cool kid" group. So, sometimes we couldn't talk, if you know what I mean, but when lunch we sat and eat PB&J together. Well, it was the day before my hair cut and Mrs. Robinson gave my fifth grade crush another think sheet. We then had a BIG talk on what the word "responsible" really meant. The next day I show up to school with the cutest short hair ever! I see my whole fifth grade class sitting on the grass outside crying. Like I already said I was good friends with the teacher so I went up to her and asked what was wrong. She said, "Ashley, 'he' died."
What?
How?
When?
Why?
Where?
All things I thought. That was the first day all year we didn't say our class room creed. It also was the first day of a new start.
"Be the change you wish to see in the world." - Mahatma Ghandi
The truth is friends there is only one person who is responsible for your life. That person is you. We can't control the event. We can control what happens after the event. We can only change the way we are. I never once thought of blaming the event. I think back on the story now and sometimes want to blame the event and wonder: Maybe he killed himself because he got a think sheet. Maybe I should have told him I liked him and he never would have done this. Maybe...Maybe...Maybe. The truth is friends, we can't live in the maybe. We need to live in the Now. Remember that the word responsibility can be broken in to two parts: Response- Ability. "The ability to respond is what we really control." - Ty Bennett
So, today look at your life and think for a little bit- What is the "Ability" you are controlling? Are you doing it the right way? Because....
I AM RESPONSIBLE FOR MY DAY
I am responsible for how I feel and for what I do.
Nobody can make me feel anything.
If I have a rotten day, I am the only one who allowed it to be that way.
If I have a great day, I am the one who deserves credit for being positive.
It is not the responsibility of other people to change so that I can feel better.
I am the one who is in CONTROL of my life.
I know this might be hard to live by this "creed" but try it. Try it and try again. Say it in your head, say it out loud. Because, I think if you try you will see that living in a place where you can be happy is easy.
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